fall/ winter is my favorite time of year by far. the unrelenting sense of fellowship and togetherness everyone shows around this time is refreshing, to say the least. i haven't the slightest clue what i'm going to get most of the people on my list but, don't worry i will not disappoint you ( Read more... )

it's been a while since i've posted on here. i've been busy lately. this weekend was great. i spent it all with colin, and we played his new xbox and destroyed Gears of War. today, i hung out with raven, alone. that was the first time since we've been dating we've had alone time. the best part was, nothing happened. i helped her with her homework ( Read more... )

Why is it so hard to prove to her that she is beautiful? Everyone else sees it but her. How do I convince her that she is beautiful? What will it take to show her? I lose sleep over this. It's hard to care so fucking much amd not be able to help. Will she ever understand that she's is perfect just as she is? Is she ever going to understand that the ( Read more... )

i have two, true friends. friends i can count on no matter what happens. colin and tyler. that's all i have and that's all i need. thank you guys very much.

for some reason i can't shake the feeling that raven, doesn't care about me as much as i care about her. i never know what she's thinking nor do i know how she feels about me. it scares the hell out of me.

so, people are starting to recognize my reality. they are recognizing the truth behind my conviction. starting to realize i'm real ( Read more... )

so, i'm happy with life as of now. i don't expect it to last long, it hardly ever does. i have a gf who is: sweet, cute, understanding, and calming. everytime i'm with her i feel a sense of calmness and security. it's odd to feel so safe around someone who seems so frail. i couldn't ask for anything more in a girl ( Read more... )

so, i close out another week. still hanging on. i miss my dad, and my friends in chicago. seems like i'm growing apart from my friends here in vegas. colin and tyler have their own bond that when they are together, i'm really not a part of. josh, never talks to me anymore. i don't really have anyone. i have my gf and her friends, that's about it. i ( Read more... )

what a weekend. thursday, i went to a show. first one in a while. friday, i went to work all day, then out with friends. saturday, i hung out with my girlfriend and my bestfriends, colin and tyler. god, i love those guys ( Read more... )

so, that girl i've been hanging out with...mine. i sealed the deal this weekend. don't think i've ever made a smarter decision in my life.