I miss having somewhere to properly vent online that had some actual people in it. this place is so empty. I'm fed up of being alone. I'm also fed up of developing feelings for folk only to have them dashed. fuck knows, maybe I should just be a hermit and give up.

Dammit, i feel awful. Bumped into an old friend/acquaintance in sainsburys, and couldn't remember her name for the life of me. Exchanged a couple of words and then basically ran away. I feel really stupidly shitty about it, she went a bit out of her way to say hello and I should really have at least made conversation a bit. She seemed quite pleased ( Read more... )

feeling kinda shitty today. Fed up of being single, dwelling on sabotaging good things I had. hohum.

I wish facebook had better controls on who can see posts. Livejournal is a bit dead these days and it means I can't ask for advice on, for example, how to handle being mildly rejected by a woman I'm attracted to - is it ok to ask her out again? Once more probably is ok without being creepy, and I was pretty drunk when i did ask her before, but her ( Read more... )

ugh. full of imposter syndrome, self doubt, and lack of self worth. I log onto internet dating sites and only want someone I fall head over heels for - but really, in person, I feel I'm not worthy of the folk I meet. I'll just fuck it up like all the other ones.

bleargh. just need a good whinge and LJ is the default place for that, eh?

goes on livejournal to whinge about dissatisfaction with life despite things actually going well. Sees friends on here also being unhappy. Feels frusrated and deflated and petty. Actually my life is going ok, I just don't believe in myself, and am quite lonely.

01. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before ( Read more... )

I can't really shake the feeling that I've done nothing of any particular significance this year. I've visited Stockholm, Barcelona and Angola over the past 12 months; all places I've been before, and in two of the three to do the same work as last time. I still live in the same flat, though with a different flatmate who I feel is less of a friend ( Read more... )

hmm, how do you figure out if a queer person you know and like is homosexual or bisexual or... no wait a minute, they can identify how they like... minefield... lets just say "interested in your particular gender"? I mean bar directly asking them, which could be rude. I guess it's not much different from trying to figure things out with someone of ( Read more... )

So! Last time I was in a "proper" relationship was over 4 years ago, as it was prior to the last olympics. I had a pleasant casual thing a couple of years ago, with someone I care about a lot but with whom circumstances conspired against us and who I'm happy to just be friends with ( Read more... )