Everything seems well and good at the moment. I have been sleeping a lot which I am enjoying thoroughly. I hate the weekends for one reason. Carl. He is over here during the day on the weekends babysitting the children. I hate him. We took Dylan to the vet the other day. She said dylan was perfectly healthy and there was nothing wrong with her ( Read more... )

So I am not sure if I am a stalker or not. By defintion probably not- I don't do drive-bys or anything like that. I don't park myself outside of her house and take write down in a scary black book her every move. However, I do keep putting both of us in very uncomfortable situations. I think I have that syndrome where I just can't seem to keep ( Read more... )

I hate days like this. Joy is at work, I have off. My friendss all have plans cuz its a saturday and that is what people do on Saturdays. I damn near started crying at the Friends episode that was just on TNT. Ya know the one were Ross and Rachel first hooked up or whatever. Bastards. I went to the store and got some dinner stuff. I am ( Read more... )

wah wah. blah blah. bitch bitch. moan moan ( Read more... )

So after our lovely dinner that Lisa made- Ed and I went to get dylan and now she is chillin at my house for a bit. I love this fucking dog. She is just sitting on the short couch looking at you like "what the hell are you doing". She is the cutest thing ever. Love her.

So I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow last night. I was soooo sleepy. My comforter felt so nice and my fluffy pillow fit perfectly and I can't forget about my teddy. I was so comfortable. I woke up a couple times. The rain, the phone, a dry throat- But I fell back asleep just as easily as I had at the beginning of my slumber. I ( Read more... )

I would stay if you asked me to ( Read more... )

My brother came over yesterday to see my new crib. He gave my roomy, Joy, money for a twelve pack of Bud Light bottles. This used to be my beverage of choice. I stared at the box with the beer in it all night. I could smell it on my friends' breath and watch the once full bottles slowly become empty. I wanted one....really bad, but alas I did' ( Read more... )

I freaked out last night. Cried for hours and haven't stopped since. I guess I thought Love was enough. I watched all these movies and read all these books with a happy ending, love wins out and beats down all obstacles well that is bullshit. Fairy tales are just that TALES. I have always believed in them so faithfully--if I loved someone ( Read more... )

I never imagined it would be this hard. I never imagined it would hurt this much. To try to let go, to try to move on. My feet are glued to the floor where I last kissed you good-bye. I can't move. I just stay in that moment, in that spot. I am happy there. It is when I wake up and realize that it is over---that is when I am crushed. I have ( Read more... )