I am not doing well. I just want to make it through one day without crying. Just one. I don't think that is too much to ask. I didn't think I deserved this but maybe I do. I just don't know. I feel empty and lost and terminally unhappy. Most things I can just shrug my shoulders, take a deep breath, and get over it. But not this, not you. God ( Read more... )

My counselor would be so displeased with my life right now. I think the whole point of this type of rehab is to keep my life as normal as possible. Any sudden changes is in theory just not good. Well at this point, as of today, the only thing in my life that is constant is that everything changes. God Damnit. My roomates have decided to move to ( Read more... )

There's another world inside of me ( Read more... )

So after a lengthy discussion between Tit, Kate, & I, it has been decided that the perfect job would be a waste removal engineer a.k.a garbage man. This came to kate and I while enjoying a playing of Men at Work. Life can't get better than charlie sheen, emilio estevez, a dead guy, and yellow hazardous waste bins. It just screams blockbuster. ( Read more... )

Most of the day was ok i suppose. Kept myself busy because i felt the depression circulating through my blood. Unfortunately it beat the control released paxil and now i am thoroughly bummed. I found myself at Damon's tonight celebrating the birth of my younger brother...he turned twenty. It was supposed to be a happy day a happy birthday, ( Read more... )

I hate turning off my tv at night ( Read more... )

I know you wont read this- you say you dont have time ( Read more... )

Boy oh Boy has my day been eventful. I got up at the ass crack of dawn to drive Tit to get her nasty cast off. Nothing turns me on that a shit load of dead skin and hot thumb hair. Needless to say- I was in heaven. I did however get to gank black cast tape from the free clinic. (hey its our tax money anyway- i should get to see the benefits ( Read more... )

MMMMM what to write. its been so long since i have posted. I miss Teddy in my room. He added a little something to it, kinda homey n shit. (In case anyone was wondering Teddy is a lawn gnome that pleasantly sat on a chair by my bed and greated me with a smile and a mystery of what he has in his man bag, when i woke up in the morning) i have ( Read more... )

Well... Im back from Columbus and I had a fucking rad time. I got to chill with my friends in a city different than Krakron. weeee. I did get lost alot down there and sitting in my black car with no a/c really wasnt fun. but on the plus side I think we all lost 20 lbs. just trying to find downtown. ow. We fixed our little heat problem by swimming ( Read more... )