how often am i pessimistic?
home.

i really can't live like this.
my mom is a nightmare.
im not an angry person. it takes a lot for me to get this way.
what am i doing here?
i wish i didn't even exist. and im not even kidding.

life sucks.
i see absolutely no good in it.

weird.

i feel different.

dont ask. u know.

so... my first few days of college made me feel extremely lost ( Read more... )

4th of july involved NO bbq!! very little fireworks seen. from a street. thats about it. depressed.

i wana have fun but be a good kid.

i dread life. everyday i wake up, im stressed, cuz idk what excuse to use on him. and i think he only likes the idea of me. not my actual. but if he feels lucky to have me, then i should probably have mutual feelings, except i dont. and i just want this shit to be over with. i hope its not a weird mental block i have preventing this from going ( Read more... )

my mom said i should go see a pyshiatrist cuz im not acting right. and that theres something wrong with me. according to her, it seems like someone has drugged me because im so impulsive. walking through the doors of my house is like walking through the gates of hell. the flames light once i step foot in the house. the flame expands, getting bigger ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking tired of this shit. i can't wait til the bakesale. i can't wait to get drunk. i can't wait to get away from ppl n their bullshit. its BULLSHIT!