oh, i miss him and it hurts. in hindsight i wish i would have had a death mask made of his pretty pretty face. i miss touching his skin and i miss looking at his eyes look at me. i liked being the lady in his eye. it was such a very nice place to be. i wish i could talk to him. i wish i could send him love letters in heaven. i want my samer to come ( Read more... )

I lost my husband, Samer on Monday. He passed away at home with me and it was quick and painless. He had open heart surgery last November and his recovery was called a miricle by the doctors. And I believe that it was, as neither he or I were ready for him to go. We had a very good six months together and our love for each other was as stong as ( Read more... )

I've decided I'm going to make my journal friends only from now on.
I'd like to shield what little of my life I decide to share on here from the putrid worms that salivate over the slightest hint of misfortune. Real or imagined. You both know who you are. Nothing is your business.

Leave a comment if you would like to be added.

yesterday was quite a day ( Read more... )

I just bought a hasselblad.
I am very excited to use it.
It's very nice.

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We are trying to find a home for Lillian.

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I got the tickets in the mail yesterday for the curiosa festival. yay ( Read more... )

i did a lot of things today:

I went to breakfast.
I went to the bank.
I got my cell phone thing figured out with cingular.
I exchanged my broken antique ring for another ring and bought a locket.
fascistprincess and I each bought a book. Mine is by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. I like him. The bookstore we were in was playing the kind of music that scores a movie ( Read more... )

Today I went to the gym and did things like lift weights and feel "the burn." I haven't been there in a while. As a special treat, I was going to go swimming with fascistprincess but ended up swimming with myself and many screaming children. Someone kicked me in the head and my butt was touched several times. The water was very very cold. I enjoyed it. ( Read more... )