it has become abundantly clear how insignificant and useless of a human piece of shit i am.

so to all the people who i have disappointed, i am sorry for whatever i have done, or for that matter, not done.

trying to meet new people is harder for some than for others.

me, for example

Permit nothing to cleave to you that is not your own, nothing to grow to you that may give you agony when it is torn away.

I wish epictetus was alive so I could punch him and tell him "fuck you" to his face for bringing up.

so much for my big plan.

it was a whole 4 weeks before i gave up on it.

thought i would have lasted a littler longer than that.

lately i've been feeling that everyone i know is laughing at me behind my back.

or if not that,

talking to or spending time with me out of contrition.

:/

my downward spiral continues.

if you want to know what it feels like, just let me know

i thought of a great analogy to put you in my mindset.

as if i didnt have enough shit bothering me or to worry about, i started to get these anxiety attacks pretty regularly for the past few weeks ( Read more... )

How come one thought or one word or one sound can completely change my mood?

i was happy content today until i got home at like 9pm.

i dont even know what it was that made me think about it but i started to think about what if the few things that i want in life do not work out.

i seriously would have nothing to live for or look forward to if one ( Read more... )

i am cleaning my room and getting rid of pretty much everything i dont need.

if there is anything of mine that you want, within reason, let me know.

ugh... i hate how cute couples are and how jealous it makes me.