i'm such an idiot, now i'm awake at 2 am and so jealous that i could cry.
it's old news, but 3 months later it still hurts just as bad.

all i need is a new mix cd and a change of scenery-
neither one will be too hard to obtain.

whiskey, skinny dipping, and spin the bottle on the beach.
i'm pretty sure i had the best night ever.

dear mr president,

please don't let me down. i'm trying to save our community... all you have to do is show up.

lots of love,
me

big things coming.
presidential things coming.
life changing things coming.

i'm busier than i've ever been. but i'm the most focused i've been in years. i have a direction & i have a goal. it's a wonderful goal. the kind of goal that changes people. i couldn't be happier.

i thought i was ok, but it still stings a little.

i just need a fling.
a work fling, a travel fling, a romantic fling...
a fling in every aspect of the word.

i don't want any more strings attached, i don't to have any more expectations.
i want to know it's going to end, i want to know it's not going to last, i want to be standing on my toes at all times.
... i don't want be caught off guard

i'm okay. you're okay. everything's gonna be okay.

my mom always told me that we become what we despise the most, in this case... it couldn't be more true. i guess it would be difficult to emotionally fulfill someone when your heart is in another place. just 4 days ago he was begging me to move to pensacola because he wanted to take care of me. the words he said rolled off his tongue like saliva- ( Read more... )

six months, 4 plane rides, and a bus ticket later
& it feels like water slipping through my fingers.
there's not a damn thing i can do to save this.

it's getting closer to the end... everyday i feel less and less connected. every conversation grows more distant, and discussing turns into bickering. jealousy has consumed both of our hearts and the distance is only making things worse. we had plans to run away, move away and never look back; the two of us creating our own world outside of these ( Read more... )