I lost my grandmother a couple of hours ago.

RIP Lucille Mason 12/1/27-5/28/10

Never thought it would hurt this much :(

has started and I know that it can not be nearly as bad as the one that has just ended. I am looking forward to this new year with a bit of hope that things will be better than they were before ( Read more... )

to the last post....dont have a boyfriend anymore as of last night.

I knew things were coming to an end, but it still hurts pretty fucking bad...my arm can show that much. :(

sometimes I cant help but feel like im wandering alone in the dark ( Read more... )

So yeah, things have been quite upside down lately, so here they are in no particular order:

My brother is here:

Casey, one of my younger twin brothers, finally got out of prison and moved down here. Unfortunately he brought a woman with him, which is what has ALWAYS been his downfall, and it is proving to be again this time. This woman ( Read more... )

I came to a bbw thing here in orlando...met a guy the first night...and he was wonderful despite the fact that he was from Oregon. But then he pulled some shit tonight where he had a problem where i had said that I like girls as well as guys but far pickier with women. So now its a huge issue. I said...fine..bye...and he talks about how great i ( Read more... )

I need to remember that even if no one else gives a fuck that its my birthday...I should be thankful I made it through another year

....I need to just fucking move out...find a way to pay rent and utilities on my own and pay to go to school. My mother makes me want to slam my fucking head into my desk. I cant stand that she gets fucked over by a guy and just keeps going back for more disappointment and abuse. At least if i dont live with her i dont need to see her do this ( Read more... )

I went and saw Eurydice at the Hipp yesterday before going to my brother's gf's bachelorette party, and it was FANTASTIC (the play...the party was fun too though). I highly recommend those who live here in Gainesville to go see it ( Read more... )

....for sure. I applied for a position two levels above what i am at work and got the job and the raise of about $3.40 above what im making now. Sadly, a co-worker found my myspace page, which if some have seen it, has sexy pics...but nothing fully naked or obscene or anything on it, and she showed it around to other people at work and it caused ( Read more... )