I’ve been single over nine years, with no true relationships in that time.  Only meaningless crushes, wasted infatuations, and gross hookups, but no real happiness.  I’ll be 29 in five months and I feel like I’ve wasted so much time.  I’ve spent the majority of my life alone, all my 20s at least, wasted almost all of it doing nothing, years of my ( Read more... )

yesterday was six months since my father died ( Read more... )

I graduated with my masters in literature two weeks ago, on a saturday.  I got a job the next tuesday that starts in august, I'll be teaching 12th grade AP english to kids in south Pharr/Las Milpas which excites me.  I'm going on vacation with the extended family this weekend to vegas.  I don't have anything planned other than spending money on ( Read more... )

This week I am
                      eight years
and a week
single.  life has lost
                           much meaning,
and I smile
                much less
without
someone to make me
                               smile.

a new year ( Read more... )

I know no one
                    will
read my poetry, much less
                                      understand it (you
especially),
but it's ok.  I'd feel
embarrassed
                   if you knew how much I loved you.

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TecateI'm not drunk, but I've drunk ( Read more... )

I've been thinking of live journal and writing in general lately. 90 to 95 percent of all the "poetry" I write/update on here isn't really poetry. it's usually just bits and fragments of something cute, or an impromptu mad dash typing that turns into something, but it's never really planned out before hand and never edited in an real sense. my ( Read more... )

all the formatting and structure has been fucked with by html, I'm sorry, there was a lot there ( Read more... )

it’s weird to talk about, but I think I really like someone and I think that there’s actually a good chance at it being a great thing. the reason it’s so weird to talk about is that I’m usually so effusive over my new crushes, getting crushed way to quickly and living in reverie the rest of the time. with this, I’m cautious from the start and it’ ( Read more... )

spring break has come and gone once again ( Read more... )