I'm not going to charge my phone because then he can't cancel our plans.

GHT 1: The song "Summer Hair=Forever Young" by The Academy Is makes me feel like I ought to be fondly nostalgic about high school, except I didn't have that kind of high school experience. And that makes me sad. I would do anything to have a summer like that, and friends to have that summer with.

GHT 2: I'm becoming so vain, and I don't care. I put ( Read more... )

1. My parents don't approve of me talking to one of the only people that always makes me happy, regardless of anything else.  I don't understand why, and I miss him a lot because we never see each other ( Read more... )

God's honest truth... today is the first day I didn't miss you.

So, I just recently made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I told him how I felt. I let my heart out of it's titanium shell. And you know what? It got STOMPED on, and then thrown through a shredder, where it was promptly shredded into about three trillion small pieces. And then I hung up the phone, and called my best friend, but it didn't ( Read more... )

I'm starting to realize how much I live through others. How much their experiences make me happy. It's good and bad. And it's somewhat pitiful to me. I hate it. It just shows how sheltered and weak I am. Another part of me that I need to literally cut out of me.

Sometimes I feel like I am so full of spite and hate that the world would be better off without me.

I'm naturally very cynical- so while I should be able to feel better about my life due to the downright awful experiences of those around me, I have this horrible ability to live vicariously through others ( Read more... )

I'm scared I'm going to relapse without even meaning too, and that it's going to happen so fast that I won't have time to stop myself.

I'm terrified about tomorrow. Because I'm going to be going with you, and though there's going to be another person there, it won't matter, I'll only have eyes for you and the sheer beauty that you hold, the velvet texture of your voice, the softness of your eyes, this is all I'll see. And tomorrow, hopefully I'll get the answer I've been waiting ( Read more... )