Watching blood run down my foot is the most satisfying feeling I've ever had.

my boyfriend wont open up to me, but expects me to open up to him.
how can i talk to him about things when he wont even talk to me about things that bother him??

my world is crashing down around me.

One of my best friends from high school called me last night. She said she tried to kill herself by ODing on Ambien and Vicodin, and that she couldn't find it in me to let me know. That she told her family not to contact me ( Read more... )

Yesterday a horse I know well died. She belonged to a friend of mine who died of cancer in 2004. Mzuri was a gorgeous horse, and died of a heart attack while out on a ride in the bush. She was 38. Her owner Lizzie was 49 when she died ( Read more... )

For the first time, I can skip two of my classes without any major penalty. I can't stop doing it, and I'm starting to feel really bad about it ( Read more... )

--i want you to think i'm "precious" or something close to it.

--PCOS makes me feel so unfeminine, I could just cry.

--also; "All Falls Down" by Kanye West is just the best.

You can stay the fuck away from me.
I never want to fucking see you again. Ever.

Please kiss me.
Please? Just do it.
I don't even know if you want to but just do it.
It will make me the happiest girl in the world.
I swear I'll leave you alone after if you want.
Just friends.

i'm cannot wait until i'm 18 so i can pack my shit and just leave.

people don't understand the relationship my mom and i have, actually we don't have one.
we don't talk like moms and daughters should, i never tell her anything really.
she always gets mad at me for the stupidest things and whenever i make her really mad, i cry about it to myself and ( Read more... )

I feel nothing anymore.