Its been a long couple of days. Working on a few hours for many long hours during beautiful sunny days. It is an amazing gift we get to wake up and experience this thing we call life. I am so happy to be alive. I have had amazing last few nights with Jay. We have had some drinks and some time out with friends. It has been a wonderful blend of ( Read more... )

Another transition in life. I have a pretty clear idea and strong passion to become a chiropractor. I am really interested in going to LIFE WEST. I have enrolled in Mira Costa so that I may start all my pre-requiste classes. I am so excited to go back to school. There is this new found confidence in me. I feel as though all the things that I ( Read more... )

So I was at work today and it was my lunch time, and I was HUNGRY! I got to the lunch room and I noticed I lost my 1 dollar bill. I was accepting of the idea but still ran through the internal dialouge externally with a co worker. He asked me what it was that I wanted my dollar for, I replied, 'food'. He opened his wallet and handed me $2. I was so ( Read more... )

Yes the first song that comes to mind is by BNL, One week. But its been like 2 years. I have scattered pieces of journals on papers strewn about, and none of them record history properly. But then again or memories are not quite perfect either ( Read more... )

The path to one's inner self is not the easieset. Pateince is definately required to learn anything. Sometimes it can be hard to be present in the now. Patience is definately required to be fully present. Sometimes knowing that you can't change anything including yourself, is a hard thing to understand. Is it true? Can you change yourself? I don't ( Read more... )

Screaming, pounding, beating in my head. The shrill and the ache of it all. I can't see, my head is spinning. I feel dizzy, I lose my balance and fall over. I want to throw up, and then I feel my heart beating in my throat. I start to drool, my eyes start to roll back. My whole body shakes. What is this? What is going on ( Read more... )

Human beings are funny creatures. We are constantly seeking attention and then ignoring it when we get it. We play mind games and crave this sick demented perversion we call life. We at least most of us do. I see the games, and I see the truth. I don't have time for any of it. I don't like it when people lie to me, and I can't stand it when people ( Read more... )

I have been having the craziest dreams. A lot of them include the ocean and weather changes. For example, last night I had a dream last night about watching snow fall and the ocean. I can't seem to figure out why they are scaring me so much, or why they are so intense, but none the less they are interesting. I am fully aware of how to lucid dream, ( Read more... )

I finally got around to writing my story. It was an adventure and I can't wait to do it again if I am given the chance. Truth be told I didn't realize how hard or easy it was until later. Well here it is. You might want to set aside a good 20 mins or so to ready this one.

It was in a child that God sent his message to us that I was to bear his ( Read more... )

Well motherhood can be quite demanding, so now is one of the few times that I can actually post. I spent the whole last couple of days cleaning, feeding the baby, sleeping, and taking care of business. I got to make a new friend, and I feel really good about it. She has always been friendly with my but has always been scared to make the commitment ( Read more... )