my head is so fucked up...i feel so fucking worthless....useless...pathetic ( Read more... )

these bottles of wine are sooo damn good, i already finished one and am almost done with the second..one more to go...i havent had wine this good in a long time now...but they chase away everything..even death

ill be ok tonight, i just went and bought three big bottles of wine...so, ill sleep deep tonight

i have finally gotten some motivation to clean my house a little...it wa destroyed...and plus i almost went on a rampage last night and destroyed more..bur icooled myself off and chilled out...and of course finished of the rest of the vodka i the freezer..so it helped me sleep for three hours...

Im not going to be able to take this pain much longer...its too great..ive never wanted to die so bad in my life...my god it hurts...it hurts so bad that im actually feeling physical pain....icant sleep...cant eat....cant breathe....my tears just run down my face ever constantly...i cant do this much longer....i just...cant

man this is crazyyyy...her mom just called me crying...man i dont get her right now...you just dont alienate family because you feel like you are in love with someone else...this is crazy....family is blood...and blood is thicker than anything...no matter what ever may happen, you cant make family disappear...and running only makes things worse.... ( Read more... )

man ive never had so much trouble working...im working twice as slow as i normally do...

this is killing me man....im trying so hard to not lose it and go crazy.........................................

in the end, ill always be here for you ( Read more... )

if he ever hurts her in any kind of way ill break his fucking neck and cut off his balls ( Read more... )

secure and hold fast...before you lose control ( Read more... )