first time ive been on this for awhile, but nobody reads it....so its safe

It just seems like life keeps makin turns for the worst lately

And i cant even get back to school

Can anything else go wrong?

For fucks sake man

BTW

Himsa rules

i never said she fucked me over, just that she left me for cameron and that i was depressed and that i didnt understand. And now she goes through my myspace and sends out a message talking shit. But whatever man, i dont ever go through her shit and i wont, because its none of my business what the fuck she does, none at all. But to deny it and then ( Read more... )

The insomnia is fucking murder on me, and when i actually sleep, the nightmares are horrific. My body is starting to fail....i already had a lot on my shoulders, and when she was by my side, the burdens were not so hard to carry...but now that she is gone....i reached my breaking point...i always knew i depended on her alot internally, and i was ( Read more... )

i wish i knew how to handle all this shit....

at least im not handling it with alcohol or drugs...thats the one bright spot in all this...that after a couple days of binge drinking to cope...i stopped...which is good...because alcohol, weed...nothing can make it all disappear, no matter how appealing it may seem.....

But god it is appealing...

im tired...tired of everything ( Read more... )

each day that passes my mind deteriorates that much more....the days are getting longer and the nights hard to bear ( Read more... )

you know what? Sometimes its hard to do the simplest thing....like breathe....

its really hard to believe everything that has happened...especially because i remember everything we talked about and how great things seemed when we spent that one night at the beach...that night was amazing...she seemed so happy to be with me and so promising to me with everything she said to me and how she held me and how peaceful it was...but ( Read more... )

for the last four months she has been running from me. maybe she was unhappy with me. I tried to make her happier, helli tried to talk to her, and she just ignored me...four months she has ignored me, never wanting to talk about anything in her mind...i always came to her...sometimes a little late, but within a month or two i came and laid ( Read more... )

God it hurts so fucking bad.....................