tired and hurt and nauseaus.

she would never get a surprise that good. her crummy boyfriend would never do anything that nice for her. all he does is whine about how the things she says and does hurts him and make her feel bad and hold out on her. too bad he could never make her really happy, with a surprise like that.

god i feel like shit.

Mabey something is just wrong with me. Is it really wrong for me to feel like i need room to breath? i have talked to other people to try and get perspective on this, people whom i trust in counsel. I am told that i am not crazy, but that could just be because everyone has a one sided opinion. if someone feels angry or depressed when they are ( Read more... )

did you ever get the feeling that you were supposed to be feeling something but realized that you werent feeling anything and that made you feel really weird? me neither!

well, at least now i have one test out of the way. the econ was ok, but i really wish those bastards had called me and let me in on their study group like they said they would. I really hate it when people dont do what they say they are going to do. Though, i do that myself sometimes ( Read more... )

This week promises to be very crazy. i have 2 tests and one presentation, all of which i expect to do very poorly on. i have a test tomorrow in economics, but i dont have the book i need to study!!! I was going to meet up with a guy that had the book, but he hasnt called me or emailed me like he said he would, so i seem to be fucked, since i ( Read more... )

Amy just blew up at me for not telling her not to drop her math when i didnt know she was going to drop it untill after she had done it already. This might make sense, but i dont get it. it really doesnt make that big a difference, because she wont lose the hope. HOPE looks at attempted hours, not actual, and she attempted more than 12 so she's ( Read more... )

im tired, tired of being admired, tired of love uninspired, im just tired ( Read more... )

im stuck between classes with nothing to do, so again i find myself filling the hour with random banter with myself. I have slacked off in my training too much. the only time i really train anymore is sunday, and one day a week isnt enough. My forms have started to suffer from lack of practice. I wish there were somewhere I could go and work ( Read more... )

Good, now that I have the sequence problem fixed and you are with me, I can continue doing nothing. Someone told me the other day that I seem very smart; smarter than the other people around here. I told him that, while there are a lot of people here that are very stupid, I am forced to embrace myself as one of them. I am forced to because I ( Read more... )

I dont know what else to do, so I'll just start typing. Thats really the only way I ever do anything, to just start it and hope nothing shiny comes by to distract me. It doesnt even have to be shiny really, just distracting ( Read more... )