I had a good weekend all in all. Valentines day was fun, though I had to go to stupid work. But no day is better than a day when I wake up next to Amy! and I dont mind having to be a little sneaky to do it. I miss my Amy:( luckily i have her valentines day present to help get me through the week ( Read more... )

      Marriage is love.

Wow, wednesdays are crazy. My econ test was pretty easy, though there were some questions that I didn't get b/c I didn't do all the reading. Hopefully I will still do well enough that I won't have to ovecompensate with my other test scores. I've eaten a lot today. Much more than I usually do it seems. The result is that I have to go to the ( Read more... )

Well, another day goes by in this below average southern GA town. I know that each day i get past is another day closer to getting out of here, but there is so much I hate about this place. I know there will be stupid people everywhere I go, partly because I myself and fairly stupid, but the quality of the stupidity here is just too good for my ( Read more... )

well, Im back in milledgeville now, and no happier for it. this must be what its like to be working a job that you absolutly hate. I guess the benefit is that i know eventually that ill get back to a university that I like...like the one that all my friends go to. isnt peer pressure great? ive been thinking more and more about my major, and ( Read more... )

This has been a really good day. I didnt have to get up at any certain time, and I got enough sleep for a change. jumped almost immediatly into the shower, which is always nice and warm. then I went over to Amy's and she and her sister cut my hair. that was a lot of fun, because neither of them really knew how to use the razor and they had to ( Read more... )

god, today is crazy. four classes, all about an hour to an hour and a half apart. plus, i have to prepare for a presentation and find sources for it, but we dont even have a library! i just want to get through tomorrow and see amy. yesterday was a light course load, but it was really weird in terms of emotions. started off happy, went to sad, ( Read more... )

but i cant leave it at that, because ive said something that isnt true. i did want to be in her bed, and i her life. i just feel like ive gained those things by sacrificing something else that i think is more important, which is her confidence. but it isnt my place to choose what she gives to who or when. its my place just to take what im given ( Read more... )

Is it bad to feel like running full tilt into a wall? I'd do it, but i know that if i did the fucking dorm people would charge me for denting their pretty wall with my fat head ( Read more... )

feeling useless
feeling shut out
feeling like a meat stick
feeling like an anesthetic
feeling like I'm not what I wanted to be
feeling like I'm not enough
feeling like I'm too much
feeling drained
feeling confused
Good thing feelings go away