So I've been on my meds again for um...today makes eleven days. WOW. What a difference. I've got to stop doing this to myself. I had no idea how depressed I was, how deep I'd gotten into that dark place again. Only now that I can compare how I felt alittle more than a week ago with how I feel now can I see how bad things had gotten ( Read more... )

It isn't really the Alexis thing thats stressing me out. Maybe it's the fact that I'm about to completely uproot my life, again. I'm graduating, ending my college years, quitting a job I've had for three years, a job I love, leaving a city I've gotten used to and friends that matter to me and going back to Louisville. And although my family will ( Read more... )

I did something last night I've never done before. I told someone I loved them. I told Alexis that I love her. What is this supposed to feel like? Cause right now my chest just feels tight, I just feel..scared. I wish I had some basis of comparison for this feeling so I could know if this is just me reacting to the loss of independence I've always ( Read more... )

It's been two years since I posted. Two years...since I'd even thought about this journal. I couldn't believe I even remembered my screenname and password. I spent three days rereading all my past entries, all the way back to 2003 when I first got the code from Fey at LYG and opened myself up to the world of online blogging. And you know what I ( Read more... )

You know I kind of miss posting on here. I'm thinking about going back through all my old posts. It's been more than a year since I posted ( Read more... )

So it's over. I've finished the seventh and final Harry Potter book. If you haven't you can continue to read with out fear, I won't give anything away. Twelve years. I've spent twelve years with these books. Devouring every word of them, dreaming of the world that Rowling so elegantly and seamlessly created, anticipating the arrival of each book ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in forever. I din't think I was going to. But it seems that every time I think I'm done with this thing, I need it again ( Read more... )

It's amazing how on a site like this it almost seems like life pauses when people aren't making entries. But life is continuing. Every second of every day the 6 billion people on this planet are doing something, some are being born, some are dying, some are experiencing the most important moment of their life while I'm typing this. There are ( Read more... )

I thought love would feel more complicated. I thought it would take longer. But this feeling is so simple, it's warm and relaxed. And it came on so fast. Sara hit me like a ton of bricks ( Read more... )

I never saw this coming. And that is saying alot for me. I mean I had exactly what I usually want. A couple girls who were cool and interested. I don't like commitment and relationships. So I date. But today I had a date with Rachel, who is sweet and easygoing and cute and I was looking forward to the date alot. I was thinking about it this ( Read more... )