why does it seem like I only update this when I feel like shit... helpless or distressed. The hardest part of my life is recorded here. Now that I look back, it was actually the best time of my life. Compared to what I am dealing with now...it feels like childsplay. All of these years later, I am still in love with Maura. I can still not forget her ( Read more... )

I drank a bottle of Jim Beam last night. My head is killing me.. and I still feel drunk. Not to mention I am at work and some Indian guy is eating somthing that smells like feet.

SHIT!!!!

Ok.. I got the glide for the Vega. It is not a turbo shaft style. But it is still a TCI Glide and the Vega only weighs 1800 pounds. I figure if I jet the carbs for alky I will bet it into the mid 6's with the 468cu ( Read more... )

I was sitting on the couch on the 22nd of June. My cell phone rang. It was Maura. She wanted to thank me for sending her a live Pavement cd in the mail. We talked for about 30 minutes. She asked me to go get coffee with her sometime soon. (July 3rd.)needless to say as we hung up the phone I was crawling out of my skin with joy. I know it sounds ( Read more... )

Weird day. Talked with someone else I was not expecting to hear from. This weekend my Dad is coming to town and I am gonna meet up with some people I met on this weight lifting website.

Ate like a pig again. I had 3 doubles with cheese from Wendy's.. I feel sick. I am gonna go lay down.

uughhhhhhh

It is almost time to go home.. I am now on a Maura kick.. can you believe this. It has been in my mind all day long... Now I am torturing myself. I do not know why I even bother thinking. She is all I can think about.. I keep thinking back to how much I loved her. I wish that would have never happened ( Read more... )

Weekend was good. I thought I would put this in here to archive the time and date.. whatever ( Read more... )

I cannot sleep. I have SOOOO much on my plate. I have another meeting with Jacoby tommorow about a diffrent job. I guess I will be fully rested.. time for mone new sleep enhancers.

I have not updated this in a long time.. wonder if anyone reads this???

I have been a bad boy.. now it is time to pay the fiddler. This is gonna be a long hard process. I hope God still loves me.

I was on my way to work when they broke into the radio show to tell about the airplane hitting the world trade center. As I was listening the second plane hit. Then the pentagon. I am sick with fear, because I have a very good friend of mine who just moved to New York. He lives near where this disaster has happened. I am done for now... Lets all