I'm in that place, where you forget all the bad, and can only remember the good. I really really want him to tell me he actually is serious about the books he got from the library to 'fix us', and apologize for insulting what I believe in, in such a tactless way. This is the easy part, it's painful but we're both still thinking about each other, ( Read more... )

Well, last time I updated I talked about my amazing boyfriend...which he was. We couldn't communicate worth shit and I tried so hard and with the exception of three wonderful days he didn't seem to give a shit. He wanted to be together forever, but couldn't accept that would mean talking about problems and thinking before acting, I would have been ( Read more... )

 It's always everything or nothing.

I'm always looking for crystal clear answers, I don't take leaps of faith anymore. I keep asking for answers and getting them, I can see that they are right in front of me, but i'm too chicken shit to do anything about it.

Griffin understands, now I just need one of those special collars...

 I realize now why I want what I can't have, it's because I don't actually want anything at all.  I am refering to men here, I love the idea of it but not the reality of it.  I hate being anyones girlfriend, going to parties and being introduced as someone else's tag along drives me crazy, I hate walking down the street with a guy and running into ( Read more... )

Of course I miss it all ( Read more... )

Erik 's junk is FINALLY out of my apartment, I can walk around and organize things without setting aside a pile for 'when his stuff is gone'. It's so nice, I really wish he had taken the initiative and done this anytime in the past 3 months rather than waiting until the very last day that I was going to allow everything to be there ( Read more... )

Iaido -

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I have been doing Iado and Aikido, and DANG, I am looking gooood! I'm also skilled with a samerai...well bokken...but no one knows what a bokken is ( Read more... )

I've been published... not really ( Read more... )

 My gut is out for hire, it is extremely accurate. At least when it comes to matters of gay or straight, babies and their sex, who is getting pregnant next, that sort of thing. I charge on a sliding scale.