Today I went and jammed with some local dudes in town and it was actually pretty fun. Not as many people showed up as I thought there would be. But it wasn't as unbearable as I had imagined, as a matter of fact there wasn't anyone there that I felt uncomfortable around. This older dude did ad-libbed vocals and it sounded like hardcore punk, or at ( Read more... )

Today was ok but ehh. I feel really sad right now. Empty ( Read more... )

I can't stand it.

Every time I get the stupid notion in my head that trying to explain my feelings to my dad might actually change something, it just ends up resulting in further misunderstanding. So I'll just stay silent.

The next time I move out of this house will be the last.

Last week, I went to the mall with Blair. The nice one, an hour away, not the shitty one 2 towns over or the slightly-less-shitty-but-only-because-it-has-fewer-overall-patrons mall one town away. I bought a few nice dress shirts and a couple ties, for work. I can't wear my dad's hand-me-downs anymore. They never fit me and I'm a man now, it's not ( Read more... )

This is not where I belong ( Read more... )

I hate this! If I'm not even in control of my own body, then what in the world AM I in control of? I'm 22, I have a degree, yet I still answer to my dad ( Read more... )

I'm 22.

How old will I be when I start making money?

At what age will I move out of my dad's house?

How long until I feel I'm in control of my own life?

When will I stop hating myself?

I haven't been writing much music lately. I've just been focusing on moving out of here once and for all. I still think about getting a band but I just haven't been writing. There's too much other shit to do and too many lazy habits to break ( Read more... )

Hmm... I didn't sleep last night ( Read more... )

I found the dog. She came bolting out of a bush like a rabbit. So I guess the worst case scenario was averted ( Read more... )