what's become of me? i'm listening to cheesy love songs now. wow ( Read more... )

i don't think there's a word to describe exactly how i feel. it's kind of a weird mixture of alot of things. giddy, anxious, confused, contemplating, amused, scared. an odd mixture at that. i'm feeling a thousand things at the same time ( Read more... )

wow, it's been a while since i've updated this thing ( Read more... )

i had a much better day today. everything went fine at school, i had a math test.. i think i got a B on it or so. finished my essay for english class, i need to get an A on the essay in order to get an A in the class. yes, i'm a perfectionist, what can i say ( Read more... )

well, today was just as shitty as yesterday, i'd say. even though i went to youth group tonight, i don't feel at all better about anything. i started crying during worship because of all the family anxiety that's been going on lately. it really really sucks ( Read more... )

today started off as really good, and then it became super shitty ( Read more... )

ahh, the 24 hour relay was a blast! i had so much fun. our team got at the highschool at about 8, i'm guessing. we ran 11 miles each, which is alright, i guess. i'm so friggen sore though, i haven't even walked that much in the past month! lol. madison, jackie & matt (from algebra class) were doing it too, so i had a fun time hanging out with them ( Read more... )

i'm reading the notebook, by nicholas sparks. it's somewhat different from the movie, but i still love it. it's more detailed and i've already cried twice. i know that it is fictional, but the love that allie and noah share is spectacular, and anyone is so lucky to have anything close or similar to it. it makes me really want to be in love.. ( Read more... )

we got home yesterday around 11:45AM, which was pretty good timing. after making a few phone calls, everyone met in pismo at hotshots. it was me, madison, jackie, seth & nick. we waited for ashley for about 15 minutes, and she never came, so we decided to go down to the swings. seth put on jackie's sweater & purse and walked around pretending to be ( Read more... )

alright, so as it turns out our plans got totally screwed up and now i'm coming home tomorrow. we're leaving at 6-fucking-30 in the morning, and i set my alarm to 5:30AM. omgahh idk now i'm going to get up. i was extremely pissed earlier because this always happens. this trip has been pretty pointless, the most eventful thing we've done is unpack ( Read more... )