i'm finally coming home tomorrow. yesss. i'm having an okay time up here, but it definitely could be better. i guess it's just because i don't really have anyone to hang out with & such. except for blake, but i don't think i can see him this time, so ehhh ( Read more... )

we went grocery shopping earlier & got a shitload of stuff. i'm in heaven, we bought so much good food. then we rented movies; the exorcist, the village, closer, wicker park, and as good as it gets. i'm gonna make some popcorn in a bit ( Read more... )

sunday night i went to the grad with mona. i was supposed to go to the movies with ashley & chantelle, but they couldn'd find a ride and i couldn't get ahold of them. wow, it was a weird night. i was in line to get in, and who do i see right in front of me? michael, my ex boyfriend. i haven't seen him since october, and i didn't want to talk to him ( Read more... )

tommy's (my mom's boyfriend) grandaughter, isabella, came over today for a few hours, so we could return her to his niece's house (rachelle) where his surprise 50th birthday party was being held. she's so adorable! we played barbies for a while and then jumped on my trampoline. i felt like such a little kid again, it was great. i hope i can babysit ( Read more... )

i was going to go to youth group last night, but i wasn't feeling well at all so i just slept the whole night, from about 6 until 6 this morning. i had a fever last night, but it was gone this morning. i felt alright but i didn't go to school because my mom already took the day off, so yeah ( Read more... )

i feel outrageously happy for some reason, i've been feeling this way a lot lately. maybe it's becuase i'm completely over relationships for the time being. or maybe it's because i've recently began to accept god into my life, i'm not sure, but i really like this feeling ( Read more... )

i spent the night at madison's last night with jackie. it was pretty fun, we watched "how to lose a guy in 10 days" and "thirteen" and parts of "american wedding" and some random porn movies, haha. i don't see how people find too much pleasure out of them, they're just kinda interesting to watch. i think boobs are really ugly looking, does anyone ( Read more... )

only twice in my life have i woken up each day and felt empty. this is one of those times. i don't know where i went wrong. the hurt i feel is horrible, knowing that he doesn't want to open up to me or anyone else. feeling like he doesn't value what we have (or had ) anymore. i just don't know.. all i can do is sit here and do absolutely nothing, ( Read more... )

wow, it's weird how things suddenly come up. so abrubtly that you really don't know what to make of it. he wants to "just be friends", for reasons that exceed me. "it's not about you at all" he told me, he just doesn't want a serious relationship right now because he is going through hard times with his family. that of which i had no clue about. it ( Read more... )

i'm quitting track. blah. i've never been one to quit before, but i don't have a passion for it anymore, and there's no use in spending 2 hours afterschool each day doing something that i'm not passoinate about. it makes no sense, so i'm quitting. i'm not very good at anything either, i used to be alright at sprinting, but i've gotten slower. my ( Read more... )