hmmm. i'm not quite sure what to say. i have a boyfriend? haha. things are official now with me and justin, but i am semi-dissapointed in myself for ignoring my hesitation to get into a relationship now. it's not bad, because i'm obviously taking another chance at potential heartbreak (it eventually happens in the end, 99% of the time. admit it), ( Read more... )

i don't care anymore. i really truly don't. it's not that a part of me still does, but it just bothers me that she didn't tell me. like it's some huge secret. and just imagining them how he and i were, it's fucking weird. it just irks a part of me to some degree, and i don't want to see him hurt one of my friends. he's not worth her effort, at ( Read more... )

false words"always and forever ( Read more... )

if you were my friend, you would tell me how you felt. it's not hard to be honest, and i'm a very understanding person. why do people always feel the need to decieve and lie to me? really, i don't get it.

what's wrong with me?

maybe i'm missing something.

life has been extremely boring lately ( Read more... )

the winter formal was a dud. well, it wasn't a dud in general, but i didn't have the best time, on account my date didn't know how to be a DATE. it wasn't very fun, but everyone looked really good, and i finally got to meet krista, garrett's girlfriend. she's a doll, i'm glad they're together ( Read more... )

today was rainy. it was nice, except the fact that i was cold & didn't have a jacket on.. that's never very fun. i thought that farmers was going to get cancelled tonight, on account of the rain, but i guess not. i probably won't go though, i don't have anyone to go with because i'm a fucking loser ( Read more... )

i'd better go make a list, because now i can add something else to my list of failures. i'm tired of always being decieved. i'm sick of being lied to. my heart can only take so much, and it's far past it's breaking point. this is just the perfect little cherry on top, i tell you.

completely, painfully delectable ( Read more... )

this week, so far, has just went by in a huge blur. idk, it's a weird feeling. i've felt oddly liberated yesterday and today though. hmm, funny ( Read more... )

i'll admit, i hate feeling so helpless and vulnerable. especially to getting hurt again. i hate feeling like i need him. i hate this feeling of attatchment, but at the same time i'm enjoying it. i think i hate this, because i know that there's no guarantees ( Read more... )