I'm confused.

I'm not sure what to think anymore. I was almost convinced it would be okay. As always, I'll be vague in my interpretations, keeping my secrets hidden, yet subtly expressing myself to you. I was happy today, yet my happiness was brought down somehow by what wasn't said. And there I go again with my expectations, my damn unconscious expectations ( Read more... )

My weekend was nearing perfection. It was great, I had most my homework done by Friday, I was surrounded by friends and I embraced the good feeling that was in front of me. Then Monday came.

So, today was a bad way to start the week. I want to blame the horribly difficult Calculus test and my lack of sleep, but I know that only triggered my ( Read more... )

This has been a great three-day weekend. I'm anti-procrastination...or slowly evolving into a homework junkie. I'm not sure which. But it feels great to not have to worry about any assignments or projects until next week ( Read more... )

My insignificant feelings overwhelm me. I try to carry on and leave behind my petty emotions, yet I provide myself little comfort when attempting to shake off my insecurities ( Read more... )

I've successfully survived the first week of school. Though my resolution this year was to end my procrastination, I find myself knee-deep in things that need to be done before the upcoming week. New Year's resolutions never seem to stick with me, despite my efforts to keep to them alive ( Read more... )

I started writing you a letter, gushing with emotions and reflections of times past. Then it inevitably led to my signature ramblings and pointless paragraphs. I scrapped the letter and start again, this one making up the last letter I write you this year.

As I think about 2005, many things come to mind. It's been a year of change, as many ( Read more... )

I'm no longer in California. I wish I was, since it's the one place I actually feel at home. The ten days I spent there were great; family-filled and fun. I was constantly surrounded by the people I care about. I got to see them everyday and it was as though I had never left. My life would be completely different if I had lived there my entire life ( Read more... )

Winter break has been awesome. I'm in California, surrounded by my family and the place of many childhood memories. Being here just takes me back in time. I'd forgotten how much I missed my family, how much I missed being here. And instead of feeling like a complete stranger, I feel completely at home, like this is where I belong ( Read more... )

I hate myself for falling back into bad habits. It just proves that history repeats itself. Why couldn't these unwanted emotions have waited until after exams? It only adds on to my already-stressed state of mind ( Read more... )