I feel like I disappoint quite a few people. Actually, I know that I do and have in the past many, many times. In the end (after a long time), I start to feel like the guilty person. Perhaps I am guilty of something, but perhaps those people had way too many expectations. They did, but that doesn't mean that they weren't good people. It's sort of ( Read more... )

There are actually quite a few Backstreet Boys songs that I like. I'm not quite sure why straight people think that their songs sucked--well actually I do know why. I miss those days of the 90's, and now this decade is almost over as well. Where does all this time go is the question of all time. What have I done in all these years? I still feel ( Read more... )

Where do our wishes go? Where do our dreams go? Where does all of our hoping go? Are they all stored up somewhere in an astral world only granted to us when we're pronounced dead by the coroner? "They" say that God has a better plan for us than we had originally planned on having. But what about what I want...right now... regardless of the ( Read more... )

The worst part about dating or liking only a few people very seriously in your lifetime is that when you give it all that you've got and get crushed like a dry leaf on the sidewalk, a part of you can't recover. It's as if the blood spurts out at random moments, and you just want it to run freely until you're like that dead leaf with no identity-- ( Read more... )

So, I went back down to Otown (as we Orlando people call it) for Tgiving. It was rather fun this time around due to some unexpected visitors...rather a couple that my family knew who live in Novi, MI now. They recently got married so talking with the guy was kinda fun b/c he was "around" my age and knew MI well. The other was my bro's gf who I ( Read more... )

I know that any of us that are gay have accepted this fact, if not in the past, then slowly over time. Some of us have tried pursuing girls when we were younger (and some even now), and this has resulted in knowing "for certain" that we are this or that i.e. gay or straight or bi, etc. Although there exists a continuum consisting of one end as ( Read more... )

If someone challenges me or my beliefs (whatever they may be even if I don't necessarily believe in them), that is a great convo. But remember not to overstep your boundaries. Tell me something that I don't know. I don't want to hear that I'm a jerk or an ass or super nice or kind or good looking . I like to find the truth in people and the reasons ( Read more... )

So, the wedding Saturday didn't turn out to be all that horrific as I thought. It was quite pleasant since I had the chance to talk to some familiar faces during the cocktail reception and reception/dinner. Open bar is always nice, but I only had a few drinks b/c my head was killing me as usual. I think I have anemia. I need to get my blood checked ( Read more... )

So, I bought a few chess books to further my knowledge in the game of chess. I love the game and learned how to play it just for fun/kicks ever since I was in the 4th grade. However, I don't really know any strategies one can pick up simply by reading specific chess books and playing practice games. So, I've started on that because it's very ( Read more... )

I swear I could feel the endorphins in my body rushing through my blood today as I was showering, I started laughing so hard because I remembered a time oh so long ago when I made fun of my brother. Abel Espinosa made me smile today on aim. It was a much needed 3 seconds of life.