so i always start these stupid entries as "it's been a while..." so i'm going to skip that part, cuz ya'll already know it's been a while. so many times when i'm feeling like i just need to write, i don't have the energy to turn the computer on and type my thoughts out. i've been very emotionally charged here lately. things keep changing in my life ( Read more... )

Ok so I know it's been forever, and as usual I will say life's pretty boring. Not too much goin on here. But, I can say life is wonderful. It's weird how even the crappy things that come along, don't seem all that crappy anymore ( Read more... )

alrighty, so apparently it's been forever since i've updated, and i've been instructed to get on it. so here i am. updating. not all too much has been going on, but at the same time i feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to do what i need to do ( Read more... )

ok so i hate pms, i hate being emotional, i hate having horrible dreams about my boyfriend then waking up the next morning and feel like it's coming true. i'm coocoo today. i don't even know, i was all about updating but i just dont' want to now. i think it's all out of me. thanks stef! thanks for letting me vent. that's what this post was for but ( Read more... )

ok, i don't want to go into great detail, because it's kinda unnecessary, but i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me. last night pat and i had a "heart to heart", and what made it even better was that it was completely unplanned, it just kinda happened. and both of us were completely open and honest with eachother about some things we' ( Read more... )

alright, alright. it's realy been ages since I've updated. Fact of the matter is sometimes when it's 3 in the morning and i can't sleep, it's easier to pull out a notebook and write. just write about what's bothering me, because it's usually only about patrick. or my feelings about patrick. or his feelings about me or some other stupid bul shit ( Read more... )

i don't have anything productive to say. i just thought i'd update so ya'll knew i was still alive and kickin. o and life's great right now. just to let ya know! i'll update for real when something worth teellin happns. lol. luv you guys.

life is crazy. am i here? am i really at the point in my life where i'm figuring things out. growing up is scary, enlightening, i don't even know. life is good. even when it's bad it's good. it scares the hell out of me what i did. i actually attempted to end my life. i don't want it to be a dirty little secret, and i also don't want it to be a big ( Read more... )

this has been one of the busiest weeks of my life, it seems. i worked a double on monday. went to new orleans early tuesday mornin. had a freakin blast while i was there. it was really nice to be there more than just 2 days. things were much more enjoyable...left there at like 5:30am to go to work at 4pm...all this on saturday. had an awesome day ( Read more... )

ok this could potentially be an extremely long entry because i feel like i could just go on and on and on...but i won't...i completely accidentally and last minute got to go to the kenny chesney concert tonight with pat's sister. that's a long story but fact is she so called me at 630 and said hey put clothes on i'm pickin you up...so i did and i ( Read more... )