i am so sick of everything. in a matter of a few hours, my mom somehow completely detonated my entire trip to europe. i envisioned that a year from now, i'd be heading home from one of the best experiences in my life. i would be ready to come back to the states, after having lived in prague and soaking up enough european culture for a semester. now ( Read more... )

i cant believe prom and graduation was a year ago? thats so weird. senior year was weird. i dont know if id want to do high school all over again, and if i did, would i do anything differently? probably, but i cant see what i would really want to do that much different anyway. not gonna lie, i do wish i could relive the kind of thrill and ( Read more... )

i saw the new york philharmonic last night in central park with dan, eli, and dan's friend (whose name i already forgot). it was an awesome experience and im really glad i went. i expected it to be very casual and whatnot, but there were about 60,000 people there, and people went all out for this. the women sitting next to us had a table with wine ( Read more... )

so, i wish i was in new paltz instead of plainview. i had a great weekend when i went up there and now im bored as hell and annoyed a lot. maybe its the weather, which has been kind of freaky lately. i just have no drive to do anything. lately ive been having trouble sleeping, my back hurts and because of whatevers been happening to my spine, i ( Read more... )

so i got the job at usdan. im going to TA a sculpture class...interesting new things for me. teaching and sculpture: two things i told myself i would never do, and now cant wait to do. i still think im going to hold off on going into teaching since im not committed to doing it, i really am not interested in art education at all, but i am interested ( Read more... )

the past few days have been incredibly interesting and quite dramatic (in a good way). im not sure why, but its as if the entire semester is winding down from the beginning. all the things and the people i knew the beginning of last semester and orientation are beginning to make a reprise, but in a kind of conclusive way. i suppose the concept of ( Read more... )

the weather has been beautiful. its really weird, things have been getting better. i found my old bike i assumed was stolen for the longest time. a lot of bad shit happened a while ago, but everything has kind of evened out a lot. i mean, its strange because im in no different of a situation than i was 2 weeks ago, but i feel happier and better. im ( Read more... )

ive reached such a low recently i just feel dull and disgusting. i have to force myself to eat, which i get sick from anyway. i cant sleep anymore. im so sick of new paltz and i hate the people here. people are just fucked up. the only good thing right now are my classes, which i have a lot of work for, but im inspired to do work of all things ( ( Read more... )

AHHH i fucking HATE EVERYTHING IN NEW PALTZ. this place is a fucking shithole. i hate the people (not really the academics). i dont know what the hell went wrong, but i hate being here so much right now. i dont only see/talk to people in class and never out of class. i always call people, but they never call back. i always call. nobody ever calls ( Read more... )

so i have 4 weeks left of school, and 2 left of class and then im done with my first year of college...scary. anyway, ive been bouncing around a lot because of the good weather so ive been really optimistic and productive (and sometimes not). i have a shitload of work for hte rest of the semester, but i seem to be getting it all down somehow. i ( Read more... )