so, i think things got a bit better. i went to the city on saturday with my art history professor and some other people, and i spent a lot of time at the met, and then at the moma. i saw the asian art section, which ive been dying to make my way to after going there with my mom over the summer. i think i have some awesome ideas for a tattoo now, ( Read more... )

what i would kill for now, rewind back to the summer going into senior year of high school. id do anything to be with my friends right now, driving down ocean parkway at 6 in the morning, windows open, at the height of the summer with the sun just perching over the horizon, stoned out of my mind. or pregaming at lees house, right in the middle of ( Read more... )

im finding dealing with day to day things is becoming increasingly difficult. im really just frustrated right now that things arent changing, that everything collectively has taken a huge nosedive since last semester. its beginning to drive me nuts how incredibly ignorant people are! i really cant stand it anymore, i feel like im always tiptoeing ( Read more... )

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i made a big move today. i decided to drop photography, and not do a bfa in photo anymore. i just fell out of grace and interest with it, and ive moved on to other materials as an artist. i feel good about being freed from something i wasnt enjoying, but at the same time, im a bit scared because now im kind of thrust back into the "unsure" zone ( Read more... )

so the semester has gotten a great start, for the most part. i really like my classes. basic sculpture is awesome, we get to do welding! the jews of germany class is really interesting, except a lot of people in the class are half retarded and kind of slow it down significantly. my early 20th century art to 1940 class is the most interesting, and ( Read more... )

once august came, suddenly it was like the summer got cut short. i have less than 3 weeks now home and i feel like i have to cram sooo much stuff in. i havent done any shopping for school yet, even though i dont need to do much anyway. i need to go to the verizon store, finish some of my ceramic pieces, and some other stuff. i also have tonsillitis ( Read more... )

hmm well good things and bad things ( Read more... )

I'm done with my first week working at Usdan. it got better each day so that was good. the first day i was a bit nervous, but i did alright. by yesterday afternoon, i felt comfortable and mostly settled. the teacher i work with, jackie, is really cool and laid-back. ill admit, the other staff members in the art department, and well, the entire ( Read more... )

im at a crossroads in my life. i feel so lost, and i have no idea what direction i should go. i feel so dull and numb and i have no motivation to do anything. i want to do a lot of things, but i just dont muster up the energy to do it. its 215 am on a saturday night, i should be out having fun like i do in new paltz, instead im procrastinating ( Read more... )