To this place where i hide my most hidden thoughts publicly... If only to prove that i feel ( Read more... )

a thought crossed my mind, what if i never get to say goodbye ( Read more... )

I am sick of this emptyness, pretending I can feel any thing is getting old. I keep everyone at a distance. Embracing those close to me at an arms lingth. I can not and will not let u close because though u feel u know me, butcher do not. U feel u see me but truly u do not. Any one I,feel I can truly care for I have to push away. I need to ( Read more... )

Upon wishing for nothing I found u, vibrent and lusious in life. So fresh and so beautiful, ur stunning eyes gleemed through me, like no one ever truly had. I love u deeply for seeing me. Though our time is not now, I find myself longing to be the one who makes u glow, to be near u, to wake up to ur heartbeat next to mine. I love u endlessly and ( Read more... )

Stone cold yesterday
Like snow outside the window
Levies break and we are crushed by the waves
The creak becomes a river as we are swept into one another
Alone, we are broken and unprotected,
so cold and frozen like yesterday

Night sipping its way to morning like dog lapping at water, I find myself kicking again at the same wolf at my door, ravaged and hungry for what it can't have, happieness. In longing for it, I find everything lack lustor. Things I thought I once cared for pale in persuit. I fear the man I was or could have been is purgetorn in flux with the ( Read more... )

Petting The serpent, my chest withers with every thunderus beat, a day closer to death, yet closer and closer as of late. Mortality another paranoia, breathing another level of pandemonium, heart ache the 10th level of hell. How can one care if they know it will bring only suffering. Any movements as starteling as the fatal strike. I have given my ( Read more... )

Silloetts of yesterday haunt my nights while wishing things could change, but this road is growing grim,

I sit alone, I'm not alone but I'm alone, eyes wonder avoiding contact avoiding glimpses of what happened, my lack of conscious never allowed me to feel regret but I see it in small glimpses, tiny fluttering looks of fear and rage I apologize to empty air, with hope both sides feel some kind of catharsis, but still its broken as of last, ( Read more... )

I realize now as i always have, that you are the love of my life, I'm sorry that u don't love me anymore, and i will never love anyone else ever again, I love you angel, I miss you angel and I wish I could hear u laugh and i wish some one could make me laugh they way u used too. I do love you