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on my way to london in the morning. grandpas still in a coma but its only a matter of time before he goes. i just dont want to cry anymore. ive never really experienced this kind of tragedy on my own. my grandma died when i was like 6 but i didnt really understand it then. most of all im not ready to go on a plane for like 10 hours. what a drag. i ( Read more... )

i hate live journal i feel obligated to update. at any rate - went to therapy took a personality quiz consisting of questions asking if i was abused as a child at least 10 times and if i felt the need to get "stoned" at least 3 times a day. what ajoke ( Read more... )

this update is long overdue. at any rate-- had a good day considering the misery i have at home. this past weekend i snuck out of my house after inventory saw that the neighbors lights were on.. still didnt think they would catch me tho. i come back... their rat of a dog starts barking,,, so i run and hide behind the bush-- come to find out my ( Read more... )

1. what samson told me about vince (sab help me ( Read more... )

so much cleared up yet so little at the same time. last night- hung out with sab diana, samson, brooke, and then vince called me and wanted to see me, and then at the end of our conversation he throws in the .. "okay baby?" or "talk to you later sweetheart." never had that before. these long talks with sabrina seem to help me figure out what im ( Read more... )

wow yesterday seemed like the best day in awhile. started off with waking up at samsons, with sab and mo, then we headed off to walgreens to get our pictures developed. needless to say, they rock. then headed to mcdonalds for my casual sausage biscuit. that held me down til much later that night. then miranda befriended some mexicans and asked them ( Read more... )

got my tarot cards read today by a so called professional. calso-- your remarks of tarotology are not going to cut it. basically said that vince was the dark shadow in my life, he will destroy me, and she layed out the card with a million swords stabbing a heart. she says a good relationship will come from over seas. maybe brandon possibly? he ( Read more... )

it wasnt now til i realized that wow, what everyone said was true. im more than that, and even tho it might have taken me awhile to realize that, i know i am. as bad as i want to go there today, i cant. it would be so weird now knowing nothing would come of it. thanks to my friends who are totally supportive in helping me through this. why do i ( Read more... )

sitting at home tonight, mom doesnt think its healthy for me to even go see a movie cause i had 2 sleepovers in a row. wow. shes so smart. note the sarcasm. got my prom dress . it rocks . i think. matches my eyes. so friday night, drank some nuts and berries courtesy of samson, made a lot of "drop offs" with him which freaked me out, and vince came ( Read more... )