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Well well I guess its time to update. I been talking to Amanda for sometime. She has a lot going for her but hardly anything at the same time. I am happy for her because she is going to school. She is going to school for cosmotology. Also she is starting to believe in God now. I wish she would have when she was with me because we would still be ( Read more... )

Well I know noone reads my journals but me so I guess I am talking to myself here. Anyways I am going to put as much info as I can about this girl ( Read more... )

Well I am trying to stay positive but I just can't. I really really loved my Amanda very much. Its hard to see how she left me in a flash so quickly. I tried to stay positive while we was together in the long distance relationship and she helped me out a lot. I miss our conversations. I miss her saying I love you loverbuns. I miss her amazing voice ( Read more... )

Well its been a rough week. A lot has past in the beginning of the week. I am in a state of shock still about it. I still love her to death. I want and need her back. I thought we were going to make things work out and stay strong. She told me that she wanted kids and stuff. Well I do too! She then told me about the abortion. She thinks it was all ( Read more... )

Well I just found out that the girl I love th most decided to fuck another dude. I don't see how she did that. If she really loved me she would have never even done that. There is no if, ands or buts. She is just a cold hearted bitch who doesn't give a shit about anybodys feelings. I been worried about this because I know how women are.  But I know ( Read more... )