I'm bad at wearing a mask...a randomly sad post that i will regret

[gosh_golly_gee]

This is the worst night by far from being home after chemo. I feel wonderful, almost back to my old self, except for things sometimes making me sick with their smells...it’s my thoughts that are making this night a hell. Seeing all those children everyday, sick was hard and is still fresh in my mind , I can't stop thinking about them, those kids.

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[anonymous]

Your heart -- the bigger it is the harder it breaks. Its good not to forget. Love you -

Tina

[pacofish]

I don't know what I can say. Now that you're out, and you're clear, you're just like the rest of us, feeling sorry for those who are in. The difference is you know what it's like. you are a beacon of hope for all those kids who are going through it because you proved it's not necessarily the end, that there's a chance. Sure they may have a different kind of cancer that isn't as easily or at all curable, but they don't really need to think about that. It makes me want to go and visit with them, but who am I? What can I give them that won't be construed as pity? they know you. at least they've seen you and know who you are. and it may, it will be hell for you, but at least you're dealing with it head on. and that is strong. you are a truly impressive and wonderful woman. god bless you, and I hug you. **

-Paul