I finally have just about everything I've looked for all these years ( Read more... )

Ally and Liz did two crucial things to my life: they made me understand the power of the internet, and they basically are responsible for my degree in psychology ( Read more... )

I knew the choice to make, it was in my realm, and I backed out for fear.

I backed out for the unknown nature of such a world.

and what does it get me? delayed suffering for both of us?

I have just sealed the fate. This will not end well.

I don't want to face today.

all the signs are there and I don't want those signs.

I don't want this to end. Ever.

There's nothing else worse than now. I don't think there's anything I can do. It's all out of control and I don't have a grasp on it anymore. I don't want this. I don't want it.

I feel like I'm being taken by force. I'm going to regret everything.

I don't want this. I don't I don't.

The Thought Process ( Read more... )

Chapter 1 ( Read more... )

Every entry contains this endless message: the clock ticks and the days stream by. I blur at the notion that I might not be able to go at such a pace that I'd like to pursue by. Sometimes this leaves me restless, other times I take comfort into knowing that there'll be something to do tomorrow. I feel out of place, like I don't belong and each day ( Read more... )

I just saw The Royal Tenenbaums tonight and I couldn't help but picture the Margot character much different than my friend Carrie. The mannerisms were so close and comparable that her struggles saddened me because it felt like Carrie's. I adore her because she's such a good person deep inside and I wish both of us could figure out our issues. I can ( Read more... )

I just want to go back, why do the days keep spilling forth. They march on without me. I feel so alone in this sentiment, I can hardly type at the notion. My days feel ever so numbered. My life just seems to coast on by and I'm running out of time. Four years already. I'm almost graduating college. How did this happen? How on earth did this not ( Read more... )