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Can you die of a broken heart? -
4 o'Clock
The last few days have been bad, starting on New Years day and slowly working it way through the weeks. I'm depressed beyond words, I don't seem to care about anything, even the first day of school. I miss him, I miss my dad. Mom hardly talks about dad and now I can't seem to shut up about the silly memories about both of them. I truly do love them ( Read more... ) -
update...
Things have moved from bad to worse to maybe hope with a silver lining. Maybe ( Read more... ) -
Holiday
Happy Halloween/ Happy Samhain to those who celebrate it.
I hope your holiday is filled with laughter and loved ones. Friends and frights. -
Naptime... and fear
Things had been getting better, though with only a few days between now and Halloween I can feel stress building up, and depression. Adding to that is the fact I haven't felt well in weeks, with random aches and pains, not being hungry when there is food and starved when there isn't it's been tough to keep everything working. Then today, I had ( Read more... ) -
Nightmares and Dreams
I wasn't aware that you could have night terrors after a certain age. Maybe the dreams I've been having really wouldn't be considered night terrors, but I do wake up in the middle of the night, heart pounding and sweat on my brow. This doesn't just happen once a night, it happens a few times, some I only wake up long enough to think something is in ( Read more... ) -
Eyes Wide Open
It was my father's 58th birthday today (the 23rd). It was raining and dreary and he would have loved the weather. He would have hated what happened today... I was in my first car accident today, nothing major, but still two cars met and there was minor damage. The lady who my mom hit left after checking the cars, I'm not sure this is the proper way ( Read more... ) -
I dislike this ride and wish I could get off
This last week (and it’s only Tuesday) has been an emotional rollercoaster. Highs and lows, tears and smiles and a little melancholy bitterness. Autumn and Halloween are my favorite times of the year, birthday days and Christmas aside. I love the smell of autumn; I love the scent of pumpkin spices. My people are out in force and there is laughter ( Read more... ) -
Feelings & a Coconut
I'm fighting it the best I can, and yet there are bad thoughts floating in my head. I'm lost and can't find my way home because I don't have a home any more. I left what I had to be with the person I loved and now when I find myself here again, it can't be home because one of the pieces is gone. I find myself crying and pleading with invisible ( Read more... ) -
One Month
So it's one day shy of a month, 30 days since everything changed. This time last month I had a father, a boyfriend and a home that I dearly loved. Funny how time keeps going when all you want is for it to stop and swallow you whole. This time last month I was laughing and eager for Sunday to come not even knowing that in one day things were never ( Read more... )