I have, today, come to the realization that there is a very good chance that I have been dealing with PTSD. It has been very difficult for me to accept this. This has been to a fixed belief that I had of what PTSD might actually be ( Read more... )

Where do I put the shame ( Read more... )

Here is a poem I found in the internet. I don't know who wrote it, or exactly where it came from, but the words touched me.

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead ( Read more... )

Well Ted, my 1967 blue VW Beetle, insisted he be taken to the repair shop today. They will work on it Monday, but they were nice enough to let me bring him by today ( Read more... )

This has always been a powerful song for me. Probably due to the first line. I have often been one to put others before myself. I am learning to put myself first, but it is hard.

Here is The Cure.

Every time we do this ( Read more... )

I have always loved this artist. I saw here in concert once in Utah. It was at a club called DV8. It was a rather small place and she had a cellist on stage with her. It was an awesome performance. I have had her music for a very long time, but I do not recall ever hearing this song before. It made me cry. I miss my kids.

Father: What is it ( Read more... )

Till my body is dust ( Read more... )

The Video on YouTube for this is very powerful.

"Into My Arms ( Read more... )

As I eat this delicious food,
I am about to pay for,
I listen to Adrian and his wounds.
He sings the emotions I feel.
Raw as his voice,
and filled with dark images
that swirl the toilet of my mind.
I live my insanity,
doing what I am,
expecting a new result.
It seems I get to learn,
yet again,
to enjoy the journey.

I have a new pet. I young Bearded Dragon. Donald and I think it is a boy, so we named it Draco. He was climbing his little tree post last night. I need to get more crickets, he is eating them faster than I expected.


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