I'm  single

i just realized.....probably not for the first time (my memory sucks these day) (yes...it's worse than before) that i am not happy with the way things are.

i'm too much of a burden to everyone..... time to go...........................

i just wish i had somewhere to go...

my brother was accepted by the marines. he's shipping out next sunday. i know it's what he wants to do with his life and all, but i feel like i'm never gonna see him out of a body bag. i love my siblings. i don't want to lose them. garrett, if you get yourdelf blown up or shot or anything, i'm gonna drag you back and kill you all over again. i love ( Read more... )

this is actually worse than the Jason and Violet thing. this is worse than when we first started seeing each other and Chantal was still around. this is ( Read more... )

so. the santa moose was good to me. i got almost everything i wanted. except for the $350 Crystal still owes me. and one other tiny thing... but...it happens.
so. crystal!!!!! $350!!!! and i wouldn't mind hangin' out sumtime.
and....nevermind about the other thing...
it's all good.

i fucked up. i know i've fucked up. but i feel i'm not being given a chance to redeem myself.
i'm sorry to everyone i've hurt, confused, headfucked, and screwed over in the past few months. i've been hurt and confused and taking it out on everyone else. i'm sorry.
i'm going in tomorrow to talk to my doctor....
i hope she can help me.

guess who's an alcoholic???? that's right...(in the words of Crystal)... this guy ( Read more... )

i need a hug. a good cry. a breakdown. a drink.

oh yeah. it's 9/11...we all know what that means...
much drinking. Gia, i miss you. i wish i could kill the bastard that had to schedule his terrorist attack on the day of your funeral. a glass of wine for the first lesbian i ever met.
...then those sleeping pills....