I don't know what to really say, my life has gotten pretty boring, I feel like I am a prisoner in my own personal self made prision.  Don't get me wrong I know deep down somewhere I am happy I just have lost touch with it, all I feel is this deep numbness within myself.  One day this will get all better when ever my boyfriend and I get through ( Read more... )

I FEEL:

I feel like I have all of this inspiration inside of me, but unable to get in touch with it.  I feel no pain, no sorrow for the way things have developed in my life.  I feel free, I feel ( Read more... )

Well I been up  in Kingston for almost a month had two jobs, but I have decided to head back to Blind, why you may ask? because it always seems like I don't like it there, in which I don't but I love the people there. I have some good friends Bonnie and Ed are like family, and I just can't handle not being there. I still have my place which is a ( Read more... )

I am in Kingston now having to stay with my sister till she finds out from these people if I can stay with them. But I am going to look in this room for rent, down the road from her.  I do not know how long I am going to be handle this I need to find friends, and things for myself to do. I am not coming to her bf again its not right I feel to be ( Read more... )

Well Shane and I didn't work out long story and really rather not get into it. So I am moving back to Kingston about time I get myself out of this town and back to civilation!!! Also down to 110 pounds so happy I hope the weight just keeps coming off!! I am going to put some pics of lily and I on here. I guess thats about I will write back on here ( Read more... )

My kitten Leo passed away a few days ago he is one in my icon picture. What happened was he was down stairs and this portable heater feel on him, it was very sad and a image I will not be able to get out of my head. But I still got my Lily so trying to look at the brighter side of things.

Won't believe it Mike wrote me up two days ago now I would ( Read more... )

To all the Mama's out there happy mama's day!!! Not to much is new in my life, I have meet someone. His name is Shane. He is ok, nothing major in any means, just having fun. Its nice to have someone to spend time with and not have to sleep alone. But I don't feel that it is going to get serious at all. Probably because I will not allow it too. ( Read more... )

Not much to write that why I have not been writin in here. I lead a very boring life. But who wouldn't livin in the middle of no where. where nothings happends , and the only thing to do is drink. And I cannot even do that no more, makes me too ill. I don't know if I ever wrote but I quit smoking, christmas time. Very proud of myself. I have a ( Read more... )

Sitting here watching the Toronto Game - we are tied going into the thrid ending - Seriously we better win - this is sad no wins this season yet I know its only been 3 games but soon enough it will be 5 than 8 before we know it... lol - probably not but you know you never know. Lets go into what has been going on with me - not to much - pmsing ( Read more... )

I cannot believe how much time has went by - I was reading back everything I have written in here and I cannot believe it! Everything is in here - from Mike - to Terry - losing the baby - right up till now - sorry I am a little slow at relazing things. *Smiles* Right now I am sitting in a friends place where I am staying for the time - in a small ( Read more... )