Another day has passed. I've been doing everything in my power to not pick up the phone give him a call or a text. I'm so use to getting a text from him everynight when I get off work with him asking me how my day went..or me texting him to see how work is going. I even drive by his work just to see his car there...I wanna stop and go inside to see ( Read more... )

Well I thought I would try write a more positive entry. I have came to the decision that I am gonna let him find himself and if he finds his way back to me, that would be uplifting, but if not, I'm sure I'll gradually let go. It's gonna be a time-consuming situation, but doing this gives me a peace of mind. I can't throw love down the drain. I don' ( Read more... )

I'm so broken. The one thing that made sense in my life, the one thing that changed my life, is gone. It's the worst pain ever. I've been trying to tell myself that I will be fine and it's not so bad, but it's only making things worse. The more I lie to myself, the more I die inside. This is different then anything I ever experienced in my life. ( Read more... )

I haven't made an attempt to update since way back in July. Shit happens. I should really update this thing more often. Alot has happened in between now and then and it's impossible for me to fill in the gap...ok ok so I really don't want too, but I will say that (in reference to the last entry here) that I did eventually end up telling this friend ( Read more... )

Haven't wrote in this thing in awhile. A few of my friends kept reminded me it existed and my blogs were actually interesting. I highly doubt it, but whatever. Not alot on my mind to type about, so I'll just type out what comes to mind. Over the weekend, I dyed my hair. My intentions were to dye it a black, but the black on my natural blonde hair ( Read more... )

So the weekend is here! Well my weekend at least. I just finished up a long eleven day work stretch. Alot of well deserve overtime pay as well. Woo-hoo! ::head bangs::. Anyhow, I got the next three days off. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. Plans? Oh yes! Andy and I are going to the Expo Friday and Saturday night. I'm having a party Saturday night ( Read more... )

Feels like a Sunday night. Weird! I guess because Andy was off last night (Sunday) because he went to his cousin's Jill's wedding Sunday. I didn't go because I had to work 2-11 as usual. Andy went with his mom though. And damn, he looked soo fuckin good in his clothes he wore. He was so damn handsome, I wish I could had seen him in person. ( Read more... )

Hey folks! Long time no post. Been a very very busy man as of lately. Work mostly keeping me busy and way stressed out. Some days aren't bad as others, but that's retail for ya. Today was Mother's Day. I was low on dough so I put my creative mind together and made my mother a DVD of clips of my siblings and I. She really liked it. Made me happy and ( Read more... )

Ok, so moving day and come and gone. Friday I took a personal day from work just to get the moving done. Well I start out early as planned and the weather was fair, not too cloudy, not too sunny. So I go about my plans and wait for Andy to arrive. I come here to the office to sign my lease and get my keys, do the inspection before I move in. All is ( Read more... )

Just 4 days away from the big moving day! I'm way excited! My own place, that's all mine. Woo-hoo! Don't get me wrong, I will miss Katie, but I missed her alot when she was my room-mate. We didn't really get out and do anything. Sure we had 2, sometimes 3 nights a week where we hung out here and we see each other at work, but something has been ( Read more... )