I've been thinking here latly. It was probably triggered by hearing about Raye getting in an acident. I started comparing my realtionship with her with the one I have with Penny. When I was with Raye I not only could tell her anything, I felt compelled to tell her everything, yet with Penny I find it hard to be open with her, proobably because how ( Read more... )

So yeah a few things happened tonight that hadn't quite some time. The first was Penny coming here, and things went well I thought. The second and more importantly is that we actually talked with each other. We even got into a bit of a fight. Honestly I worry that Penny is so lost that she doesn't see any way out besides taking her own life. Also ( Read more... )

the last few times me and Penny planed on getting together, something has come up on her end, mostly something her parents come up with; and I lose. It just makes me feel so small and unimportant to her. Today we had plans to go see Hellboy 2, like we were going to a week ago Thursday. Turns out that her parents needed her at home to work on ( Read more... )

it's in those times when walls start to come down, that I have the most dificulty holding on to things, regardless that I know they'll hurt ( Read more... )

I was just thinking on when the last time I was with Penny, and I think it was some time in October, quite nearly three months. Regardless of how rocky our realtionship has been latly, I still miss her, and want to be with her. I still don't think she knows what she wants, but I'm fairly sure that I want her. *sigh* I wish I had a car. I'm on my ( Read more... )

I've had a fairly horrid weekend, I wish I could've done something else. I don't know, let me back track awhile. This is going to be mostly about Penny, not Moon or work. I asked her to marry me at the beginning of September, she said yes at the time but by the middle of october she broke it off. Yet we still kept talking with each other, and there ( Read more... )

about a week ago, jen contacted me, telling me that they moved to ohio back in april. Mind you that explains why she hasn't asked me for money since like march or so, but still it pisses me off that she didn't tell me shit about planning to move and was trying to tell me (and was telling welfare) that her and rob had spilt. I got told that she ( Read more... )

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I think I might've made a mistake. Yesterday, I spent some serious time with my girlfreind and her family. For a change we spent time together at her house. On the plus note that ment we didn't need to say an early goodnight to each other, but it also ment that we were more or less supervised, at least more then we would've been here. I think it ( Read more... )

I know it's been quite awhile since I posted, well, I'm still alive, in case anyone was wondering. I've been datting a girl. Things are mostly going great, just a couple things worry me about her. Her family is fairly rellgeious, and close, they gave bibles out for presnts for her bother's kids. Yes, stuff like this, worring about what Moon would ( Read more... )