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[gowaitinthecar]

things i hate about myself: i care too much, i am mean to everyone i encounter, i don't give anyone the benefit of the doubt, i would rather not meet anyone new or start any relationships with anyone because i think everyone is the same and i will end up hating them/regreting meeting/being with them, i look at the world and the cars and the

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[b1ack_bile]

sedgewick eh? what is he? :) i just got a Piggy (Guiena Pig) from my friend Lou [Emily Lou] i love him to death! he didn't have a name, and so i named him Bunny. hes a little less then a year old and i just got him like 2 months ago. it seems every animal i've ever owned has loved me, and i always get WAY too attached. i had a hampster that lived for 3 years that i loved so much..and it trusted me more then i've ever seen an animal trust anyone..it would let me put its head in my mouth and lightly put my teeth around its neck without freaking out (i didn't hurt it though, i only did it once to see how much it trusted me)...but she scratched her eye out and it got infected and she went paralyzed and had to be put to sleep :( ...oh well, i think i only like having pets because it feels nice when they love you :) anyways, tell me all about sedgewick!!!!

[gowaitinthecar]

jaci!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i la la love youuu

sedgewick is my goldfish and had the perfect goldfish anatomy. he has green gravel, turtles, and a plant in his home. he likes to swim backwards and pose for the camera. he is a big lush.

bunny sounds like the type i would want to meet. and i am sorry for your past loss =( i know the feeling.

[choochoojohnson]

This entry made me like you so much. You put your thoughts into words well. I'm glad you're trying to fix the being mean to everyone issue. I hope everything goes well.

[gowaitinthecar]

aww thanks!

i think i pin pointed the main reasons for my meanness.. 1) when i am hungry, i am mean 2) when i know a person very well i know why they say/do things and when i know they are trying to act a certain way other than their usual self i get pissed, i don't really know why

it is christmas and i am cleaning my entire room. i saw the life aquatic and it changed me somewhat. i liked the vibrant colors and awkward dialogue the best. people gave me nice things and i think they liked the nice things i gave them too.

when i am done cleaning i am putting new sheets/blankets on my bed, taking a shower and laying down/looking around at the perfection i created. when i clean i am ocd. or else i am ocd all the time and don't realize it.

anyway if today was christmas for you i hope it was awesome.

[choochoojohnson]

i am also ocd when i clean...hardcore. we are ocd twins.

[allthatsfake]

i am a mean person as well.
i think we all are at times.
i'm glad that you are able to be so...truthful with yourself and say these things. I wish I were like that, but i'm not as cool as you. I got your christmas card today. thank you a lot. I wrote one out to you, but I never made it to the mailbox, i am forever lazy. good, you need to enjoy break, you deserve to enjoy it and have a lovely time. I missss you.

[gowaitinthecar]

yay i am sorry i was so short in the card. i have a new mix for you though. i will get right on the double as far as sending that as soon as tomorrow is over. being away from school makes me an entirely different person attitude and energy wise.

i miss you too...another reason to hate school.
anyway i will not be a negative nancy tonight.. i sprayed this perfume in the air and it's intoxicating now. i remember smoking a ciggerette today only that never really happened it just feels that way?

ok bye!

[allthatsfake]

i remember smoking a ciggerette today only that never really happened it just feels that way?

you are raddddd.