Comments | gpallen: The Lost Passion

gpallen

The Lost Passion

Jul 16, 2006 01:34

So, how are things going for me?
( Heres a huge honky wall of text that covers whats lead up to now, which I think directly influences the now )

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basalt July 16 2006, 18:37:08 UTC

I think I pretty much had the opposite highschool/college run. I was such a total and utter failure in High School. I did absolutely nothing, accomplished nothing, got straight Cs, let my parents down, etc. etc. I think I realized after my senior year how not doing anything really kind of sucks huge balls so I worked my ass off in college. I mean, I could have worked way harder, sure, but I'm also kind of lazy by nature so you get the idea. I have a hard time relating to the not knowing what you wanna do with your life idea. Not to come off like I'm sooo awesome or something, I'm just one of those people you spoke about who's known what they wanna do since they were 5 blah blah blah. And really I am super grateful for it, but at the same time I find myself having a hard time relating to friends in your situation. I feel bad when people I know don't feel confident in their work. I want to say "well what do you want to do on a general scale?" I mean, sure I wanna draw and I wanna make money off of it but mostly I wanna be part of ( ... )

I hope I'm not totally rambling... jeepepyon July 16 2006, 19:02:06 UTC

Vague mopeyness is definitely different that honest misery, but to honest misery's credit its a big motivator, and therefore isnt usually long-term. Vague mopeyness can last anywhere from six months until death ( ... )

devingt July 17 2006, 17:49:42 UTC

Yeah, I'm in the same boat as you.

I've only got studio 1, 2 and portfolio left in visual effects, and I pretty much have nothing to show for it. I just prey to god I come up with a bad ass idea that I can slap in my portfolio to send off to people.

And even though I know how to use a wide variety of programs, I really don't have anything to say I do. Which is kinda pissing me off, I'm thinking I need to just sit down and make a few illustrations/animations in the adobie/macromedia/ suite this summer, just to put something on my portfolio. I think the only classes that I've taken so far that I can use material on a demo-reel, is my Maya and Renderman class.

So I donno, at this point, getting a job that pays me enough to live is gonna be a pain in my ass to get. I just hope the last two quarters I have here are just bad ass as far as producing work goes.