I'm starting to realize that there are many things about my personality that are a turn off to a lot of people...perhaps it's time to change before i alienate myself from all those I care about.

Well, it's Monday and once again my mood is far from joyous. I'm thinking of making these entries private because they are starting to make me out to be a very unhappy person. Who knows, perhaps I don't care anymore. I'm sure very few people on my friends list still read these stupid things anyway ( Read more... )

Work has become a popular way to keep my journal updated, since I often have free time while on or off calls to putz around the computer ( Read more... )

Wow, yes I know, three updates in one month. OMG two back to back. Hehe, I promise this one will be shorter, but it is of the same tone. Today I almost started to cry at work. I had a chat with Heather which made me feel a little better. I wish I could figure out why I've been so depressed lately. Nothing has really changed in my life to ( Read more... )

Usually I go to bed depressed and wake up not so depressed but today I woke up more depressed than when I went to bed. Sad, but true. The reasons why, as usual escape me. I mean, I had a great time at dinner last night with Arnaldo and Joey - perhaps too great a time. I promised myself I wouldn't let myself crush on anyone anytime soon, ( Read more... )

Well another holiday season has come and gone, and let me tell you, this year I'm very glad to see it over. I started taking my decorations down first thing on the 26th (a feat considering I usually wait until after the first of the year) This year though, my holiday was filled with mixed emotions. Granted, it was a great vacation not really ( Read more... )

What better time to get in touch with one's emotions than when you're on vacation in a foreign land where the natives don't speak the same language. I'm referring to my sister's house in Boca Raton where the men run rampant with testosterone and the women with estrogen. Women get up at 5:00AM to shop on Friday and men sit around with football on ( Read more... )

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Or rather, why does my mind make my life feel so much more complicated than it is ( Read more... )

All my life I've struggled with the social stigmata that I feel most comfortable associating with people older than I and always feeling like the baby...I fear this is a curse I shall not overcome anytime soon...