I miss my brother. More than any of you could understand. It hasn't even been 24 hours.

Pulsar anyone?

What's this? Laura Carey is angry? A whole week now?! That doesn't happen..

... I don't get angry.

...I'm not suppose to start hating.

Maybe that's what happens when they take away your freedom. (among other things)

You know you need to tell someone what is wearing down on you when you can't sleep at night because when you are just laying there you think of it, and you cry, and you get angry, and you want to do random angry things but just lay there angrily crying. Yes... Its true. But people don't really know what to say, people don't really want to listen to ( Read more... )

I don't know if any of you know what I'm feeling, but I'm feeling it. I've never missed anyone this much before in my life. I'm not sure how I'd handle it if it happened again. Thinking about it sometimes is the worst, especially at night in my dark room. It makes you realize how all the stuff that our world cares about it just worthless. High ( Read more... )

I miss him... I miss the reality of him. I hate the thought that now all I get are memories.

I'm pretty bummed over the cabin thing. I knew I would get my hopes up and it would just be like the other time and just.. not happen. We were all ready too. We made sure we could offord it, and were going to look at it and everything. I could finally have a cabin on a lake. I guess not.. for some reason God doesn't want my family having a cabin ( Read more... )

I love my brother. I look up to him. I want to be like him.

Nothing which has come from the earth has meaning. Everything that has come from the earth returns to the earth, as dirt: Our money, our cars, our houses, everything--even ourselves. What then are we to look to for happiness, for meaning, for life and purpose ( Read more... )

It would be so much easier if I felt I could talk to people about what happened. I would have less problems with the flashbacks...

... Maybe I should let it out.