I'm feeling...socially confrontational today. I would very much enjoy the presence of other individuals but feel I would be fairly antagonistic. I am unsure why. Perhaps it is my complete disappointment and lack of faith in people. The fact that basically all my friends have abandoned me and left me alone doesn't exactly help. It has occured to me ( Read more... )

This song somehow says just about everything that I have been trying to work through in my head today. Youtube'ing it is better because you get the awsome beat.

Sad Songs- Matt Nathanson

I've been waiting up for you to rescue me,
To come around and cover everything.
I'm relying on my best memory,
To breathe for me, breathe for me...

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It will be one week tomorrow that I gave the ultimateum...still no response. But i'm getting this squirmy feeling in my chest like something is about to happen. I dont know what but it's going to ( Read more... )

I think about life
And oh how it changes so fast
And oh how it's so hard to last here
Waiting for something to give

I think about time
A luxury so hard to find
And I just can't figure out why I
Wasted it all here without you

But I'll be fine
Oh don't you worry
Cause I'll be fine
See I'm in a hurry to be

Gone away awhile
Tell me all the things that I
I'll be ( Read more... )

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Who am I? Where am I going? What do I want? What is best for me?

And the winning question?!: how do I get there?
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Saturday I was upset. Sunday I was a mess. Monday (today) a wreck. Barely able to fuction at work. Playing phone tag with my ( Read more... )

One day i'm going to stop making the effort. One day i'm going to stop hoping. One day i'm going to stop everything. I'll stop getting excited...i'll stop trying to include people in my life. I'll end up forgetting what my smile looks like. I'll ponder the sound of what my laugh sounded like.Because really, when I look at everything, if I didn't ( Read more... )