I am forgetting...that I forget.

[gracefulnite]

Winter is bad for me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind the weather that much. I would rather be bundled up, then not be able to take off enough clothes off. ;-P But dark...dark all the time. I get so depressed, so sad. I know this isn't abnormal, but what the fuck do you do about it? I hate it. I am also w/ a partner who needs me. When I get like

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[meowgurlgv]

lets talk dear............ really

[gracefulnite]

Love you. Hopefully soon. I really need to get a computer. Right now I'm using Jason's, which is nice..but it's also his notebook for class..etc...no play time for Mandy :)

[frenchmolasses]

Everybody in every relationship feels like they give up so much more sometimes. Everyone has questions about their relationship that they just can't bring themselves to ask. And everyone has things that they just can't tell their partner. All this is normal and even in some odd ways helpful. Its the part of you that makes sure you are hanging on to a part of yourself. That you are not just becoming someone's girlfriend/fiance/wife. What matters is how you decide to handle it, how and what you decide to communicate to your partner, and how you both get through it. Questioning a relationship doesn't mean its not the right relationship; it means its an important enough relationship that you want to continuously make it better. And of course your disorder and your depression are going to make this harder on you. And on him. Having dated people who have problems with depression before, I can tell you there is nothing more frustrating and paralyzing than seeing your partner pull away and get depressed and not be able to do

[gracefulnite]

Thank you...seriously. I can't tell you how much this helped me. Sometimes it's just really nice to hear someone tell you you're not crazy, and it's not the end of the world...
How are you?

[frenchmolasses]

I'm doing okay. Busy with work and family and all that crap. John (you remember hearing about John, right?) just moved to California, so things are a bit messed up emotionally for me as a result of that, but I'm casually dating some new people and just trying to stay busy and keep sane. So far no huge issues with it. My family is my family. Work is work. Everything is pretty much in a steady holding pattern right now, mostly in the good way. How's your family doing?

[gracefulnite]

yeah, I remember John. I think the last time we really talked he was talking about moving to California. Glad to hear you're doing ok. My family is good. My sister just moved into her new house with Matt, and her baby-on-the-way. :) My brother has met someone in Hawaii that he is head over hills for. She is recently divorced, so if they get married, my brother gets a housing credit to help them afford and apartment. So... they are getting married. :) He won't be home until May, which is about the same time Betsy's baby is due. So...my life is the only one not going through huge changes...Just trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. :)