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Feeling better...
Up swing. Yay for bi-polar! I knew yesterday was coming. It had to happen. That pent up stress of not meeting perfection (normal life) plus vacation not being perfect, out of my element, etc... overloads me and I have a panic attack. Then I feel better, it just totally blows in that moment and in that moment I wrote a livejournal post. Go figure ( Read more... ) -
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Decisions
Jason came home last night an asked where I would be willing to relocate to. He is super successful and found out he is in line for a promotion depending on how far he would go. Part of me is YES! I knew awhile ago jason was on his way up. The adventurous part of me is thinking this is the time. Kameron is young, I really have no ties to Buffalo, ( Read more... ) -
Thinking...
Ok...
So I am bi-polar. I weaned off meds just before I got pregnant. Whatever it was about pregnancy I didn't have issues...
I don't know if it is because I am sick or what, but I am starting to feel like I am losing it.
I can't sleep because I have to check on Kameron a million times because I am so scared of SIDS, or there are dishes in the sink or ( Read more... ) -
Vent
Dear,
I will be a stay at home mom after the baby comes...but I am not one yet! I can't do everything while I am working full time and pregnant! On top of that even when I am a stay at home mom I do not also become your slave...you will still need to pick up your dirty clothes, dirty dishes, get your own drinks, etc... I know you think you should ( Read more... ) -
Venting
Ok...so Mothers day came and went without anything from the hubby. We had talked about it and he said technically I am not a mother yet. He is very black and white so I get it. It's both of our first times at this so I was fine. Apparently my boss wasn't (he works with my boss too) and gave him shit. Now he wants to take me to dinner because he ( Read more... ) -
Therapy
I met with a therapist this morning. I thought it was a psychiatrist. So I will still have to find one still. I haven't gone to therapy in a long time... I have been dealing with bi-polar from a distance for a long time. I am kinda scared to go in and talk about feelings again. It makes sense now that I am not taking medication that I would do ( Read more... ) -
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Seriously never going to Facebook again. EVERYBODY has babies! My internal argument is do I really want to leave a job where I get paid to go to a luncheon? Then I think...I will be pregnant for almost a year...why am I worrying about this now? Especially since I'm not even pregnant! -
Babies...
Can people please stop posting adorable baby pictures ( Read more... ) -
leaving...
I've been doing great with this whole moving thing...until yesterday. I realized that starting Tuesday and going through today I will have seen everyone I love. And it won't be that easy anymore. To just call up a friend start driving and see her in less than an hour. I mean I'm lucky that it is only an hour. It could require plane tickets ( Read more... )