Well I took the chance, or leap or whatever and got shot down. I don't know if I'm sad exactly, mostly since I expected it but I am sick of the monotony that is my life. Especially all the crazy heavy emotions. I just want to take a deep breath relax and sleep for a long time. Maybe wake up in April or March when I expect my life to be a little ( Read more... )

Yes I heard all that you had to say ( Read more... )

So after an interesting weekend I'm finally relaxing. I don't have an overwhelming amount of work anymore and I don't really see any imminent drama so I'm enjoying that while I can. Anyway the point is last night I had a dream that me and Laura were bored so my mom suggested we go to London for the day. We then go into our private jet flew the four ( Read more... )

So as you can see by the above quote me and jean just watched high fidelity. Which made me think, why the hell are relationships the only thing my brain is capable of thinking about right now. I mean i just failed my law exam and went from getting an A in the class to a C, yet I have somehow found time to once again read through all of the old ( Read more... )

I'm angry. Blood boiling seething angry. I am so pissed at where i'm at. I'm so pissed that I am the way I am. I am so pissed because i don't think i'll be able to forgive him and he will get to be that guy with someone else. I'm furious that he never paid any attention to all the warnings I gave him. I'm humiliated that he never answered my ( Read more... )

So I have had too busy a week to think about much of anything except really when I was working out, and cornyish as it sounds when I'm working out I feel like nothing can touch me so I don't feel sad ( Read more... )

You'll say, we've got nothing in common ( Read more... )

So for now things seem a little better. I feel like there is so much drama going on right now but I’m slightly removed from most of it. My life is becoming a comedy of errors, but at least it’s comedy right? Either way I’m anxious for everything to mellow out which probably won’t happen for another couple weeks. It’s pretty irritating that I’m not ( Read more... )

yeah that everything feels better in the morning thing is bullshit. Just need to make it til wednesday

That tiny piece of self i fought so hard to hold onto is gone. I can't feel anything. I guess mission accomplished. I feel like I have nothing left to lose right now. A coma would be nice
sorry for my mellow drama