So it's like everything comes tumbling down and then you finally get the strength to pick yourself back up and you just want to scream because it's not fair ( Read more... )

Oh God, so much has happened in the past few days ( Read more... )

Katie and Jessie decided to cover our driveway with chalk art. Some of it's really cute. Like the picture that's of Eli and Meredith. Even though it's stick figures, they had to write names to decipher. It's still cute.

I'm really, truly happy for him.I was happy for him before, but tonight, just talking to him and stuff...I don't know, it ( Read more... )

It's strange. How things happen in a series of events. I never thought I'd see such horrible things happen to such good people, especially around me. Carla told me about Eli taking acid, at least, that's how she explained he and Coop tripping over the lawn and Eli passing out at the bottom of the steps ( Read more... )

So. I met a boy. At BookLovers, no less. I was waiting for Judy to finish up to go shopping and he was just...there. His name is Ron. And he's...amazing. He's tall, blonde. Muscular. And he makes me laugh. We're going out on Friday. To dinner, I guess.

I'm so nervous.

Sometimes I reflect back on things and it makes me wonder why everything became so different. So...complicated ( Read more... )

I miss Dimitri. I know I shouldn't, but I shouldn't do a lot of things and I still do them. I miss him. And I know he could give two shits about me right now. He's off being happy. At least Carla is around. I see the way he looks at her still though. It's like there's a flicker of desire lingering behind his eyes, but he tries to push it ( Read more... )

Eli's band got a demo deal. I'm really, really excited for him. I just wish he would've told me and not Carla. But whatever, he never talks to me anymore so I guess I should be glad I found out ( Read more... )

And I'd give up forever to touch you ( Read more... )

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely ( Read more... )