Comments | graihvixen: Just fuck it

graihvixen

Just fuck it

Nov 11, 2003 17:38

Right now, I want nothing more than to throw away every solitary spiritual belief I have and just say fuck it. I want to go to sleep and not wake up. If I do have to wake up, I want someone to wake me and tell me that this has been nothing but a nightmare and all is right with the world. This vixen has lost all perspective and has decided to ( Read more... )

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*Hugs* sunfire November 11 2003, 21:06:24 UTC

It's ok hon, you take all the time you need. We all lose faith, and when we do, nothing and no one can provide a quick fix or magic words. Take some time to be with yourself and let that ancient healer called Time help you. We'll all be here whenever you want to come back. *Hugs*

Re: *Hugs* graihvixen November 11 2003, 22:57:15 UTC

Thank you kitty. Right now, I don't know that I want to come back. I am really and truly very very tired.

Re: *Hugs* sunfire November 12 2003, 06:30:16 UTC

I know hon. Believe it or not, I understand where you're coming from. I have hoped for death for many years now. Life has been cruel and meaningless to me and I'm tired of bearing its burden. There's always the hope of a better tomorrow, but sometimes that's not enough to deal with the pain of today. I don't know if you've ever heard a song by Don Henly and Patty Smythe called "Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough", but that song kind of reminds me of you in your current situation. As I have said, take the time you need to heal and rest. Even if you never return, your friends love for you will always remain. *Hugs*

Re: *Hugs* graihvixen November 12 2003, 14:08:31 UTC

Even at its cruelest, I have never felt as though my life is meaningless kitty. Quite the opposite in fact. I know that I am here to learn and teach. I just feel as though this time around, I took on way too much. The song you referenced has always had special meaning in my life. Unfortunately, loving is all I know how to do, in its truest definition. That is why I tend to take things harder and deeper than people feel is warranted sometimes. My feelings are just that; mine. I don't have to justify them, they just are. (not saying you asked for justification) I am mourning the loss of many things right now, and I believe me sanity is one of them. Love you kitty.

goldenzoltan November 12 2003, 05:28:54 UTC

"every solitary spiritual belief I have"

??

I havent tried to help yet . . . could I give it a shot?

or no, words are pretty weak, you should come down south of charlotte about 30 minutes and ride horses or something?

graihvixen November 12 2003, 14:10:22 UTC

~smiles and scritches the hyper puppy~
It sounds wonderful, but my luck I would bring some sort of doom to the horse ^.~